my ultimate motivation happend.
My family and I went to an amusement park. I was haveing such a blast, my Dad watched my dd and my nephew so I could ride a couple of the "adult" rides. I went to ride the one( its a tower that shoots you up and drops you) theres like 3 seats on all 4 sides. well I go to get on and I can't get the harness on enough to buckle the belt! the lady running the ride comes over and she's like do you mind if I try to push. She tries pushing and it wont work. She's like mam I'm sorry but you can't ride. and of course these skinny girls are right there and they are cracking up laughing. I made it to the bathroom before I lost it. it was the most embarassing thing I've ever had happen. but I'm useing it to my advantage as motivation. We are planning on going back next summer and I will be able to ride EVERY ride without even worrying about fitting on the ride.