He said he is thinking about stuff and junk... ough
He is really terrible, my dh said he wanted a divorce, got a new girlfriend and everything. he is neglectful to the kids and me. Ive asked for a chance to fix things and he said no, ive begged pleaded and cried at him, nothing. he has been gone for a full 2 weeks now (problems for a month before that) and today when he came by to see the kids he said quietly "i miss you guys" now i dont even really know if i was included in the you guys, but i think so.. i asked him what he said and he repeated it. (if he meant just the boys he would have said "i said i missed the kids" or something.. right? during the visit he actually let himself smile a time or two at things i said no less!.. then when he was leavin, he said hes thinkin about stuff and junk and that he would come by again tomorrow after school, and before work to see the kids again. But, he is so terrible, I know that I could meet a great new guy who would treat me like a queen, one who at least wouldnt neglect me... But i still just want dh to come home. I love him flaws and all, maybe, quite possibly, I'm stupid for that but i just want him back. I am afraid to give all this much hope and thought though.. is two weeks really enough time for him to realize he is an ass and he regrets his decision already? Another thing i am afraid of is, EVERYONE knows the Whole situation, and i know quite a few people would be so very disappointed in me if i took him back (if he wants that) .... I have been on my road to becoming a independent confident woman, and I know that if he came back i wouldnt lose my progress, but what if he comes back and then in another 6 months he wants to leave again? i like to think i would have built up my independance and maybe it wouldnt be so hard to take in again? Idk, What do i do? Hell i dont even know if he is actually thinking about coming home, maybe im thinking of all this for nothing.. So, I continue my lawyer search? and my applications for assistance, and all the other business involved? I hate that I love him. I hate it.
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I've been thinking about it all day. I think I am deluding myself about his intentions.. I piss him off and he thinks I am crazy, so, there's no way he would be reconsidering.. no, it just doesn't sound like him.. That's it, I've decided I am delusional.