Hey Everyone my name is Kristen. I am a single mom of 3 kids. 2 boys Kalob and Cory ages 8 and 5 years and a little girl Hanna who is turning 1 on the 30th of December.
I am currently getting a divorce from my son Cory's father. I am actually waiting for the courts to send me papers to when we go to court. I am happy about this divorce it was what was best for us. we have been split up for 3 years and there was no saving it. we tried but all we did was fight and it took living apart for over a year before we was able to get along most of the time.
My other two children's father is my first love who used me for what he could mostly just for sex when he wasn't happy with what he was getting. It took me a long time to see that he was using me and i finally just over a year go opened my eyes up to it and finally let him go completely which allowed me to fall completely in love with the man i was already in love with but was blocking my feelings out cuz i couldn't let go.
I made some mistakes in the past with my relationship i have now. I had cheated on him one time with the guy that was my first love which resulted in the pregnancy of my daughter. I regret cheating from the moment i did it. I hate how i let myself get sucked into his game. Aaron is they guy i'm seeing now and he broke up with me after finding out i had cheated when i told him i was pregnant and that it may not be his. We was split up for 6 months then he asked me back. That was november of last year 2009. Just before my daughter was born. Aaron was there with me when she was born and has been every step of the way. However we started to have problems again when the DNA test came back saying she was not his. It hurt us both alot. I know how hurt i was by it and i can only image how much more it hurt for him.
We have had a rocky road for the last like 5 months or so. I've lost track of time. I been taking things day by day. I am so scared to lose him. He means the world to me and i don't want to have to live without him. We have been doing so well this last month then christmas we got into a fight twice... and we have had a rough couple of days and i don't know whats going to happen... I really don't want him to leave but i'm afraid he's going to... I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what is all going on. I have been so faithful this time and i try to make him happy. I just don't know what will make him happy anymore. its like the things we used to do are not good enough and yet if i try for us to do new things he don't want to... I just don't know anymore...
I get depressed when we fight and i can't help it. I have been a little depressed since Hanna was born... I actually think i had a little bit of postpartum depression but i wasn't depressed all the time just when Aaron was gone at work so i didn't do nothing about it. He works on the road and is gone from anywhere from one night to up to a week. Now it seems like I get depressed more easy... I feel like i should talk to someone sometimes but part of me don't know what good it will do at the same time...
Well this is my life in a nut shell... Thanks Ladies for reading it