After 11 years....DH doesnt find me remotely appealing anymore and it kills me.
I dont know what to do , but the smallest part of me is angry....the rest is really hurt and saddened.
DH and I have let ourselves go since we first met, but I still love him and want him intimately. His personality has changed DRASTICALLY since we met, but it was expected since his father was the exact same way. I knew this pretty early on in our relationship and accepted it.
When I diet he turns into a Nazi practically cataloging everything I eat and do. Its horrible. If I were to diet again...I would have to do it in secret.
I just feel lost. Divorce is not an option...its not even something that has been discussed, so our marriage will remain. Just an FYI.
I just feel like it shouldnt be this way. I feel like maybe the fact that I fight for my beliefs so much that he is tired of it always being against his own. Not caring that I might be tired of his constant rambling about negative issues.Its stupid mundane stuff like work and other family members.
I just want him to want me back....*cries*
We havent had sex or affections towards each other in 4 months. He used to grab my butt or my boob from time to time or do some other cute "I want sex" show of affection during the course of the day when he was in the mood. Now nothing...I get a lot of negative remarks now instead....
Thanks for listening/reading...