I found out about my husband's infidelity a year ago. He has sworn it was a mistake, and will make it up to me every day of his life. He has lived up to that promise. In some ways, it seems our marriage is stronger. But, I can't seem to get the thoughts of the affair out of my mind. Perhaps if there was no further contact with the other woman, it would aid the healing, but as if to make matters worse, she became pregnant during the affair and now there is a child in the middle.
I wanted out of the relationship when it first surfaced. I knew it would be virtually impossible to work through this. I read some of the posts from so many women who say "if he cheats, I'm out." I was one of those. Then it happened to me. I do love him. We have gone through counseling. Most of all, I have a strong spiritual foundation and I understand the power of forgiveness. There are good days - more of them as the months pass, but the bad days are unbearable and I wonder if I will ever feel normal again.