Not feeling good about having to resort to posting about my life to get advise but think I may go crazy if I dont.
I am 36, have been married for 12 years, we have a 6 and 8 year old girls. I work 28 hrs a week, my husband works full time.
I am as involved at the girls school as I can be, I take them to all parties extra activites etc.
I know that I have faults, many of them. I do not keep a perfect house, laundry is always behind, and you can always find many things that need done.
Here's my sitiation that happened last night.
I was invited to a girls night with oher mothers. I told my husband I would not go so that he could go hunt in the morning, since he cant sleep when I am out, because I have over induldged in the past so he worries about me. He doesnt get out much with friends so I chose to stay home.
After spendinf the entire day working on kid orriented things then spending tree hours at their schools for cupcakes and PTO meeting etc, I spoke with one of the motheres and she offered to be my DD.
I thought oh great I will be able to go!!! Sooooo as I told my husband about this in a round about way, he had no response.
The evening went on, I put clean sheets on the bed, started dinner, ran to pharmacy, attempted many time to just chit chat with him, but he obviously once again didnt feel lie having much conversation about anything.
So there I sat as I receive many text s to where I am, I got upset, cuz it sucks not being able to go do something you want to do and instead sit in silence watching animal planetwith your husband that is goign to get up early and go hunitng with his friend while I take care of children and try to make myself do some housework.
Sooo when he see that I am crying and asks why he gets mad a t me. Even though I had a D he doesnt trust her cuz he doesnt know her etc. I old so and so this would happen etc. really? Thought you dont BS at work ass?
As usual our arguments turn int more than the specific issue. When was the last time I worked 40 ours, even though if you add the time I get the kids ready for school, go to work, make it home for them to be off bus, cook, do through school work, etc etc, I know it adds up to at least 40 hours. FML
I just dont know what to do. I said I wouldnt go for him, but get told I knew you would throw it in my face. Im not I just would love to have some recognition of it at least and some adult conversation instead of watching tv in silence.
He referes to me a s supermom frequently and I enjoy trying to be that, but I like fun time too and honestly its rare that its any fun with him. I just feel like shit, puffy faced from crying all evening, and have to hope the girls will invite me again. I dont go shopping aside from the grocery store, I dont go out and do anything.
I know this post is very scattered and random but hopefully you can get the idea and give me some advise.