Heres a little background on me and my significant other. We met a little over 2 years ago, had what i considered a bit of a rocky start but he doesnt agree. We really started getting close about 6 months into the relationship meeting families and so forth he had asked several times by then if I thought we should get married. we were exclusive(as far as I know). I found out i was pregnant a little over a year ago. We had our TWINS at the end of last year. He proposed a few months ago, we both knew it was coming though and I finally moved in a few weeks after. ( we both had houses so that was the moving in issue)
I've of course felt the lack of interest in us romantically, so started to get a little snoopy. I was cheated on in my last marriage and definitely dont want to be put thru that again. He always tends to have his phone on silent and turned upside down on the entry table, away from us. which has always bothered me, but whatever. I had gotten up one morning with the babies his phone was on the couch he went to bed after me. I decided to check the time on his phone since it was there, i saw a new text message, curiosity got the best of me and it was from some naked chick, and another pic of her friend. it just read hey its nicki and this is my friend. I flipped out ran in to get him, he told me it was a wrong number. he called to tell them not to send any more messages, said it was some drunk woman. he erased the number, i told him to.
A week later I went thru his phone interent history, craigslist personals. but not just wfm even transexuals. he said it was a guy thing, he uses it as porn and then he said for entertainment. not a big deal. I caught the same thing on his computer during my pregnancy he told me he was looking for his friend, i told him NEVER again. I thought it was maybe a porn thing and considered i was the size of Jupiter thought I would give him a break.
I log onto his email, after he gave me the password because I wasnt convinced a few days ago. I found a couple things he is a member of, find a bbw lover and find a shemale lover? WTF?? signed up 2 years ago, doesnt look like theres been activity though but maybe im not seeing it. Of course he says he has no idea what im talking about, but its his usual screen name birthdate and location, even his wording in the profile. i didnt look at the shemale one that ones blocked at my job thank god. I tend to think its just a porn thing, i mean he likes ass sex but what guy doesnt? I'm bothered with it being a porn thing but thats better than actual contact and i sort of understand my body has been destroyed from a twin pregnancy. But i am working hard every day to lose weight. and im only 20lbs from pre pregnancy weight but 3-4 sizes bigger than i was. :(
He honestly does show me a lot of attention, and I wouldnt feel like anything was going on other than the lack of intimacy .
Ladies I need your opinions! I dont want to be blind sinded by love, again.