Dh and I aren't on the same page and it's hurting my feelings.
Lately Dh and I aren't agreeing on things.
He got into rock climbing about a year ago, right after Dd was born. Go figure, right? Ugh, men always find some excuse after baby's are born to be away from the house. RIGHT after she was born he wanted to join the police academy and go away for an entire month to a city 2 hrs away for training. I put my foot down. He got mad because he said I was "holding him back" when really, I just needed his help with a new born. I mean, who seriously thinks its a good idea to leave their wife with a newborn?
It felt then a lot like it does now. Right now he's a mechanic and works about 8 hours a day while i'm home with Dd. we agreed after I left my previous job (preschool teacher) that there was no point in my returning to work as i would be working to just pay for daycare basically. So its been almost 9 months since I've taken on the roll of sahm.
The arguments we mostly have have to do with his rock climbing. He wants to go out ALL the time and do it while I would rather he be at home with Dd and I. So when I put my foot down and insisted he stay home most of the time and go rock climbing once a week or so he decided he was going to "make a business" out of it and lead guided climbs. Mind you, the nearest rock climbing we have is an hour from home. I feel like he's using this "business" to get more rock climbing in after work and every weekend after the fact of my telling him once a week is fine. I'm fine with him having a hobby!
I just feel like he's ignoring his home responsibilities. If he wanted to rock climb ALL the time, lead and guide climbs, and travel and work long hours then he shouldnt have gotten married and started a family. These are things SINGLE men do and he's not single.
Then he tries and makes things sound SO desperate that he HAS to do this business. "We're going to lose everything if we don't do something." First off, we're not going to lose everything. Our only debts are our house and our car and then the usual bills like utilities, cable/internet, and phone which add up. I told him I'll get a job at night while he's home with Dd. He's trying to make it seem like the ONLY way to get more money is for him to be gone more from the house and never home and able to climb whenever and however long he wants.
I don't beleive for a second he's starting this business for the family, he's doing it for himself and I think thats what makes me the angriest.
I'm seriously tired of having these arguments with him. All I'm doing is repeating myself over and over and over again.