I'm new to the group, so here's a little about me and my situation. ANY advice is welcomed. I don't have many girlfriends (in fact only 1) so any input helps. :-)
I'm a 24 yr old mom of two. I have a 4 year old daughter and 2 year old son. I have been with my husband for 6 years and married for 3. I own a small business that I run from home and he has a good job with our gas and electric company.
We've gone through our issues over the years, but one area that we've always had trouable with is trust. And by we, I mean me I never trusted him, and turns out I had good reason not to. About 7 months ago I started to suspect that he was sleeping with someone else. You know the same old drill, said he was working when he comes home smelling fresh, Just wasn't right. He came clean about cheating with one woman, multiple times. Then came clean again saying that over the years it's been about 10 different women- multiple times.
Needless to say I was devasted. I asked for a seperation- and we've been since. We are still living together (because financially we just have to) but things aren't the same. I know some time has gone by. but it feels like just yesterday.
When I asked him why he did this, his explaination was that it was me. I didn't want to have sex enough, try different things etc. Thiis particular reason hurt like hell. I suffer from endometriosis. Anyone who has this or knows about it knows that sex is painful often times. I have many times gone through with the pain to please him. I had two of his children for god sakes!
At this point I really do not know that I want this marriage. He says he does and that he's willing to do anything, but I don't believe him. The latest woman he had this affair with has an aunt that is very supportive of his relationship with her (knowing he was married) and he is still keeping in contact with her. In my mind that says the complete opposite.
I do love him to a point. He's a good father and my children are in love with him. But he checked out as my husband a LONG time ago. I can't find it within myself to check back in as his wife, At the same time, I look at my children and the life I worked so hard to build and think, "I'll be damned if all I invested in this relationship, this man- goes to the next woman."
I just don't know what to do......