Venting and don't know how to settle house trouble with DH
This is probably a disorganized venting mess but.,.....Do you know what it's like to marry somebody because you are totally in love? I did that. I moved into his house because HE is the best, and I want to be his wife for the rest of my life. The problem right now is the house hasn't worked out for me and my teen daughter. You can't go to the bathroom without everybody knowing what's going on. The house is too small for four of us living there and we have no guest room for our grown kids to come back. Christmas was claustrophobic for me with 12 people in our living room that seats 4 or 5. The neighborhood is also going downhill, most of the people are unemployed by choice, it's a main road in town, and there is drug activity the street behind us. He bought it because he wanted to downsize his debt. Before this marriage I lived in a nice subdivision.
He tells me we can move but he is on the school board and would like to hand his son his diploma next May and would like to stay in his district to do so. I am fine with staying in this house until then, but if something comes available in his district we could move now, so we do look around. HE is the one that keeps looking for something to move into right now!! The problem I am having is nothing seems to suit him and I feel like he is leading me on and making excuses to stay here. He is making me crazy because one day he will tell me sweetly he will do anything to make me happy, then the next day he throws his hands up and says he will just quit the school board, blah blah.... and I'm not even pushing to move right now! I am ashamed I seem to be a snob about where I live. I've always been a middle class working girl. I just truly love him but don't understand why, if we can afford better, he wants to stay here. Do I let him quit the school board after his son graduates to make me happy if we can't find a house in his district? I've never put myself first like that.