I am so frustrated with my life and my relationship..
I had an abortion around a year ago and ever since my life has not been the same. I feel depressed most of the time and sometime i dont find motivation to do anything. I am only 20 years old and i should be going to school to get a degree but for some reason i cant seemed to pull myself to do it. I talk to my boyfriend but there is so much he can do.
Now i am so pissed at life! My bf got the job i have been wanting and needing for the longest. SInce i moved out of my house, I need a good job and he got it! GRR I know i shouldnt be jealous of him but i work so hard for my stuff and try to be positive everyday and he doesnt try and he gets it. The position is for pharmacy tech.. i am just so upset and i feel life hates me, God hates, karma is out to get me..im sorry .. i just needed to vent.
oh and another thing, we got the abortion bcuz we were scared and didnt know what to do..So we could have a life and go to school and move in together...but none of that has happened , we have yet to move in togethe and he keeps post-poning till the end of the year and it pisses me off. Makes me regret the whole thing..
and he is a great guy , so amazing but i dont know how to let go