Ok, so I might ramble a little and mispell some words, I've had a couple glasses of wine... Ok, back to topic! SO.... my husband has an affiar a year ago in July. I have tried WHOLEHEARTEDLY to forgive, but not forget. Well, he continues to lie about small things and STILL has the demeaner of, I will do what I want, if I know I wont get caught. Thats the problem, I have caught him in lies as a result. I have finally realized, he's not gonna change and he admitted to not being happy with me, (talk about depressing). I've been fully in love and commited to this man for nealry 9 years and my heart is shattered. We share two amazing boys, a house, and a few pets. His mom and I had an amazing conversation today and even she doesn't understand why I am still with him. Ok... so I attemped to leave him 2 days ago and he froze both my cards and will only give me small amounts of cash.... I feel trapped, I love him, but hate him at the same time. I fear he might try to take my kids if he can. I need to hire a good lawyer! Thanks very reading!