my family is going to suffer because of my choices!!!
I really failed my kids and family. I should have went straight to school after high school instead of parting and playing around with my friends that led me to my first pregnancy. Now that I have a hospital job and im ready to go back to school to get my nursing degree, i enrolled in a community college by my house so that i can take some online classes until DH is done with his schooling, and then I can go to classes at the campus. Well AFTER i go up to school and take my placement test, i call my employeer and tell him im in school cause i needed to know about the tuition reimbursement and if I qualified. He tells me NO because they dont hire ADNs( nurses with associates degrees) and that they online hire BSN nurses... I dont have 4-6 years to wait to get my license. My family needs me to be making money NOW!!
We're
not hurting for money or anything. We're doing OK right now but we want
a house, another car, retirement funds, ect. And I cant get that on my
$11 hourly rate. Now my family is stuck in apartments for a long time
because of the decisions i chose to make as a teen. I dont want to go to
school for Nursing as it is. I want to actually get out of healthcare
but thats all that my work history is in and I dont want to
jeopardize(sp) my current hospital job because i waited so long to get
in one. So sticking in the healthcare is what i want to do just not
nursing but I dont want to waste money going to a school for anything
else but nursing and not have a job doing that at my hospital... because
its hard to get hired with no experience. Nobody wants to hire a rookie
straight out of school. Im really torn right now and feel awful and
weak because I am now stuck in apartments and my kids deserve better and
I was to foolish to give it to them.
I agree with this. I honestly felt that same way. But once I completed my degree, it was such a breath of fresh air and a sense of accomplishment. Now I can finally see how far all that sacrifice is going to get me.
Quoting Sunshine257:
Don't beat yourself up. Just focus on school and what you can do for them now.
Quoting Sunshine257:
Don't beat yourself up. Just focus on school and what you can do for them now.
Dont be so hard on your self...
We all make choices in life that we either regret or feel bad about later but that is what "life" is all about. Don't worry about the past because you can't change it! We all would do many things different if we had the chance to change the past. Although it may be a struggle and you may need to sacrifice, keep focused on your school and the rewards when you graduate!!!
Best wishes!
I agree don't be so hard on yourself. Also check around at some of the nursing homes in your area as they do usually hire nurses straight out of school especially if they are the ones that you do your clinicals at. I have also heard that nursing homes tend to pay a little more than hospitals as well. I am assuming by your 11 dollar an hour comment that you are now a CNA, I don't know where you are but with my 11 years experience as a CNA I am making 14 where I am at now so don't be afraid to check around once you complete your ADN.
I agree with the nursing home idea. They will usually hire new grads and with an assoc's. you can then work on a BSN after that. They may pay for it as well, or some. Then you'll be required to work a year or more and then you can move on to the hospital.
A lot has changed since I worked in HR at a couple of hospital systems. But feel free to ask me anything. Again, a lot has changed in 8 yrs though.
Good luck! I also agree, don't be so hard on yourself. Your path took you down that road for a reason. You are right where you are suppose to be. :-)
It sounds like you are doing just fine. Better than many people. What is wrong with an apartment? At least you are putting a roof over their head. $11 an hour sounds great to me. I am in college and working a minimum wage job! I think many people are feeling the same way you are. And there are also many people who are not even trying to be in school or do anything for their family.
Quoting sew4fun:I wouldnt beat yourself up honey. Just do the best you can with what you have to work with .
This! Hang in there
am i the only want that feels like this?.?
- luvmykids08_10
on Jun. 28, 2012 at 1:17 PM