So me and my DF have been going through a whole lot of ups and downs, from jealousy, controlling, verbal insults and such. We have a 3 1/2 year old together and for the past 2 days things were ok until for some reason last night he started with a slight attitude not much just a face after he had gotten off the computer I asked him what was wrong and he said "nothing ppl can just be funny" so I questioned what he meant by it cause to me it sounded a bit sarcastic. He shook his head as if it was nothing. We have been together for 5 years on and off actual together time about 3 1/2 years without cheating on him. He has accused me of cheating by speaking with other guys and thinking i was flirting with other guys. The times we were not together I did talk and be with 2 other guys as he did the same with various other females. Now because of what I had done while we were NOT together, he feels he can not trust me. He said that I am a liar because he asked me ilastnight if there was anything that i have done to make him upset. So back to the point, last night after we went to bed he got up and stayed up and i went to bed. This morning when he woke up for work, I woke up because of him jumping out the bed. He told me to look at the computer, go to find out he hacked into my FB and emails. Now I have nothing to hide so its not a big deal that he tried snooping. What is bothering me is that he couldnt trust my words and just believe me. So all he found was messages from me to my friends and family about the issues I had going on with and without him. I understand a lil on why he is mad because our business should be our business yes indeed but he wont allow me to go to counseling so who am I to talk to to try to get advice and/or let things off my chest. I have depression and anxiety which causes a lot emotional damage and stress on top of things we are going through and makes the feeling of whatever we may be going through a lot more than it is. IDK is any of this wrong?? whether its my side or his? Maybe its just something else that I am taking to far than what it is? I tried speaking to him but not a word from him.