Marriage Out Of Control! Could Use Some Advice Please!
Hi, everyone, I am new to the group and I need to say these things out loud. Well, in this post is as loud as I can get. I would love some advice so that I do not make the wrong decision based on my emotions. Here we go: I have been married 22 1/2 years. We have a 22 year old daughter with a 2 year old grandson. We just bought our first house a1 1/2 years ago. He works, I am on disability due to my MS. I do work PT with a home party plan business. I will not say since I believe that would be advertising and I thought you could not do that. Anyway, one of the reasons I went into this particular business venture was because the MS had invaded our bedrooms a while back and left us sexless for 6 months. Along with no communication, argument's, you can imagine. We almost gave up. We fought back and got to a place where we thought we were headed back to some normalcy. He thinks everything is fine, I know it's not. The problem before with the MS was me due to the fact I could not feel anything but pain and numbness. Now, things are better to where it's just pain and I have learned to cope with it so that we can have a sex life. i missed the intimacy that we always shared. Now it is him. He is always tired. Doesn't want to talk about our issues. Says they are all in my head, that we are fine. Well, if fine is not having sex but one time in two months, than yeah we are fine. I asked for counseling too many times. Says he will set it up, but never does. Says he will read these couple workbooks with me to see if we can learn to communicate better, never does. The only thing he wants to do is watch movies with me. We don't even sit next to each other. He usually falls asleep and that is that. I will say let's go into the bedroom, prior to the movie and he will find a way to put the movie in and when it is over, it is too late since he has to get up early. We are more like roommate's than husband and wife. I wait all week for the weekend for nothing to happen. July is almost over and we have not had sex even one time. Today, we haven't even kissed each other and I do not think it even matters to him. We have had trouble before where I moved out twice. Then, I had a job and a great income. I was the breadwinner. Now, I just feel stuck. Disability is a joke and I don't know what to do. Help please! Thanks for listening, sorry for the long post!