99% sure DH has melanoma. I've been begging him for years to get the spots checked and more keep popping up. His mother (cancer survivor) saw his back and chest a few weeks ago and has been begging him to see a dr. His sister (nurse) about tackled him to see his back and chest and is very upset. All of us say it is text book melanoma. He has finally admitted that he thinks it is cancer. DH is a whiney baby w/colds but NOTHING is ever serious. But he says, "what am I supposed to do? I don't have insurance, I can't afford it. I can't run up the cost anymore bc next year we'll HAVE to have insurance whether we eat or not. I have a family to support I can't not work." Laying in bed I was rubbing his back and looking at a particularly dark spot on and I fell apart. This happens about once a week but this time I couldn't stop. I am so scared. I'm 27, we've been together since I was 15. It will be 13 yrs next month. I don't want to lose him. I don't know how to be without him. We have 3 kids and they need their Daddy. I need him. He's my best friend. I can't picture life without him. I don't want to. There wasn't much point to this. If you pray please pray send good thoughts whatever. I just needed to try to get it out. I want to wake him up and let him tell me it's gonna be ok but he can't fix it and he wont even go to a damn dr.
on Aug. 30, 2012 at 3:50 PM