ok this is alot to put into such a little space me and my husband have been having problems for a while but things just seem to keep going in a downward spiral. for the last 3 years he hasnt really worked for two of those years he wasnt able to due to an injury and during that time he did some pretty stupid things and got locked up and most of it was dismissed but is still public record so it prevents him from getting alot of work plus he doesnt have a high school diploma or GED so their is another set back then he also has a problem with weed and so he cant pass a drug test he keeps saying he can quit when he wants to find work well he was working with his family on the side doing lawn care but he doesnt get along with his cousin alot and he claims his cousin doesnt pay him and then i find out he does pay him but he never has anymoney and he continues to take from me he wiped out my prepaid visas also i sent him to pay my car payments several times and guess what i now no longer have a car becasue it was so behind i couldnt catch it up plus it needed major work and i couldnt fix that either i dont make a whole lot but he takes it all and leaves me and the kids with nothing for three days they had to eat frozen hamburger patties cooked with cheese on top for dinner becasue he blew all the money i had i asnt able to buy all the school stuff i needed this year and no clothes for the kids because he blew all my money i cant even buy shoes for work for me because of him so i had had it today when i found out he had no gas to put in the car for me to get my kids from school (im borrowing my grandmas car until i get a car) or for me to go to work tomorrow so i walked out back to my parents house instead of his grandmas house where we had been staying since of course we cant afford housing for us. i dont know what to do my parents cant help i am not speaking to his mom and i asked a friend to help with gas if she can. i just dont know what to do i love him with all my heart and he is a great dad but he isnt perfect and i think he has a drug problem but i cant make him see this and i just dont know if i want to try to work things out or just move on with my life and leave him behind. i am scared to be a single mom becasue im afraid i will never be on my own again and im scared to stay with him because im afraid things will never change and i will always be unhappy and the kids will be effected in a bad way. and now im left carless too and am worried i will not be able to afford another one and i dont want a car payment. also i found out he pawned all his jewlery and mine and lost it all. i hate staying with my parents and i hate living with his family and im afraid his mom wont help me with the car and the kids like she was going to since i walked out. im so scared and confussed and just needed someone to hear my story and maybe help give me some peace i dont have alot of friends as i am a mom and rarely have time to spend with friends and i just wish i could see how things would end so i know if i am making the right choice or the wrong one and so i wouldnt be so scared of whats next.