Hey Girls! I have not posted in the longest time, with life being so busy and crazy here lol! Anyways but i have some time on my hands tonight since im not sleeping yet! I just really need to vent!
So my husband is a great guy but sometimes he just frustrates and hurts me so bad! I just dont feel respected at all sometimes! So to the vent;
I cook at home everyday (sometimes 2x a day) and i clean, take care of kids, run errands, basically everything!!! Being a stay at home mom, thats to be expected, i know! But i do need some credit for it all. I do ALOT in this house! Well i was working at our state fair starting thursday (last week) till tuesday then i have a couple days off till sat-sun!! I work usually 12-13hr days at a food stand! Well monday night i got home around 9:30-10pm and i was tired but i still wanted to make something to eat for the kids (5,3, 2yrs) and hubby. So i made shredded pork in the crockpot for borritoes! Well its already thursday (august 30th) And all the meat is still in the fridge, no one at any at all! So i went to choir practice today and did not make any fresh food cuz i knew we had food! My husband texts me and says "no food again!!'' so i told him to make borritoes! He starts going on about him working 14hrs and he comes home to no food and that he wants to rest and not make himself food! Basically he is lazy to make himself a freakin borrito! He then tells me IM LAZY and cant even make my husband food! I was soo hurt and upset. He just ruined my whole evening! I try soooo hard to take care of the house, kids, and hubby and its NEVER enough! I make new food all the time and he still finds something to complain about! He is almost never grateful and it HURTS!!! The least he could do is tell me how much he appreciates me! Im so upset the whole evening! When i work 12 hr days is still come home and clean and cook!! I never get a break from any of that! All i want is a "thank you" or atleast to be appreciated for everything, i dont think thats too much to ask for! And then when i complain about him (which trust me, is ALOT of things to complain about if i wanted to) he says i complain too much but half the things i just dont say just so we dont fight! I mean he never ever EVER cleans up after himself. I mean he wont even throw his clothes in the laundry basket or close cabinets after himself! I just walk after him and clean! And he started drinking more then before and he knows how much i dont like when he drinks. I ask him not to ALL the time and he just doesnt listen at all! And when i mention something about the drinking, he tells me not to stick my nose into his business!! I can complain 24/7 if i really wanted to! But i dont! Instead he just complains about me or starts picking on tiny things! He isnt a horrible guy, he is usually good to me but i just cant stand him sometimes! Im so hurt and upset tonight! I deserve some love and respect, i know i do!!! I hope he changes soon and realizes that cuz i cant stand it no more :(! I love him sooooo much and i feel like he doesnt feel that same way about me!
Well thanks for listening girls! I feel a little better! I should go sleep it off and maybe i will feel better in the morning!