Fast forward 6 months and here I am, completely upset because he lies to me over little shit constantly. It isn't the stuff that he is lying about that hurts so much and makes me doubt him, it's the fact that he is lying either directly to my face or by omission that hurts. He's known since the start of this relationship that I despise liars and I see it as complete disrespect, he knows that if he were to tell me the truth he would have much less of an explosive reaction from me than when I find out on my own.... But he still continues to lie.
I can't sleep without having nightmares about him lying, I can't go a full day without anxiety over him doing something. I want so badly to rebuild my trust in him again but I don't know how when he continues to lie.
Have any of you ladies been through this? What helps?
We are trying to get couples counseling but because its through the VA it seems that we will have awhile to wait and I need some help in the meantime.