I have bi-polar, about a year ago I was reading up on it and found that there were some methods that did not include take medicine that would help control it. I talked to my hubby and we discussed the pros and cons and decided that it was worth a try. In September I started having a hard time with mood swings, then it just started getting worse. Until we were fighting and I ended up cheating on him. We are still talking and I have agreed to go back and be put back on the medicine.
I am a mess right now and I am really trying to hold it together, I need to fix my marriage, I need to get control of myself and I need to admit to not only me by my hubby that I can not face this alone. There are days were everything is super easy and I get all that I need to done and then there are days where I don't even get out of bed and he takes care of our daughter.
I don't understand why he hasn't left, and sometimes I feel like I should be the one to leave before I mess up my daughters life and hurt the most amazing man I have ever know more. I have an appointment on Tuesday to get back on the meds and it could take up to 6 weeks for them to stabilize me.
Does anyone have any good advice on how to handle this? I don't want to ruine the best thing in my life because of a mental disorder that I can't control.