So when I got back home from my friends house dh and I talked some more. I am not 100% sure what is going to happen yet here but all he said was that he can't put me and the kids out of the house cause it isnt right for the kids to leave their home. See here is the deal with the house it is in his name not mine so I know he won't leave it. Ok so he also said that maybe we should keep our distance from each other. He says that he just wants the kids to be happy. I am so confused. I am not understanding him right now
After we went to bed last night he wanted to talk yet again. He is constantly telling me that we were rushed into things. We moved too fast. We didn't really know each other and when we moved in with each other. Than two yrs later we got married (pretty much forced by his father) than after marriage I found out I was preg 5 months later. When first dd was 18 months he bought a house for us, when she was 5 we had dd number 2 and when dd 2 was 6 months old we found out I was preg again with dd 3. Now after everything and 11 yrs he wants to tell me things were rushed. Wtf...I am so emotionally hurt and my heart hurts real bad. So what he is telling me is everything we went through in 11 yrs was a mistake. Of course I am going to be mad and become hostile. I don't think of it all being a mistake. I am at the end of my rope now. I cant handle being told it was a mistake one more time. I know he says he won't make me and the kids leave but at this point I feel I have no other choice but to pack me and the kids up and go. Don't know where we will go or how we will survive but I will figure it out I guess.