holy f8ck!!!! i think i might be pregnant i took a test cuz i still havent started my period at first there was only the one line but then i went to check it later and there was a faint second line my husband is going to be soooo pissed i cant believe this has fn happened ive been on the pill for 3 mths frick frick frick. i dont even wanna tell him cuz i know hes going to say i should get an abortion we sooo cant afford this right now our middle child has a genetic disorder that appears to be getting worse and now this fuck i wanna cry soo bad but i cant cuz im at work, i dont wanna have to raise 4 kids on my own but i also refuse to have an abortion sure i wanted to have one more child maybe a boy but this is soooo not not not the right time!!!!!
PLEASE DONT BASH ME I HAVE ENOUGH STRESS AS IT IS I JUST NEEDED TO TELL SOMEONE
Update so went to the health nurse this morning and the test there came back negative! She wasnt sure why i havent had my period so she told me to continue my pills come back in a week to retest to make double sure, and if i havent got my period by next time im due she said the hormones could be to high for me and i may have to go on another type. Also asked her for info on getting my tubes tied (which im kinda of mourning over doing it) but i guess out here they only pay up to $500 of the $3,000. cost of surgery. So that will be on the back burner as I/we save up. Thanks to all of you for the support, oh and when hubby found out last night as i couldnt hide the worry from him the first thing out of his mouth was "you better not be" and today when i told him i was going threw with the surgery whether he liked it or not (because he talked me out of it before) he just got very quite and has said much since. i think secretly he does want another baby but is in the same scared boat as me how can we afford another baby???
OH and to the 1 negative B8tch that had nothing nice to say and thought i had nothing but hate for the potential baby, even though i was freaking out a big part of me is pretty depressed the result was negative and that i have decided to put my foot down and end all chance of ever having another baby so.... to you!!!!!!