Hello again... Well only one person answered my post last time and I'm still suffering from the same situation. I've been married for a few months now, been dating for over 5 years, and we have a son together. Well we always had a on and off again relationship, but after a very rocky road, we decided to get married. Well, let me just tell you how I feel. I feel alone, sad, angry, upset, frustrated, unloved, not appreciated, not respected. That's just a few to name! When it comes to my husband, he's all about himself. Whether it be going out every single night with friends, going to the casino all the time, or something' we never spend time together, we don't hold hands, we rarely kiss, we don't sleep in bed together, we don't go anywhere, it's awful! I've always had a bit of anxiety but it's so bad that when he is here I can't even stomach him anymore, my anxiety goes through the roof the second he gets home. I've tried over and over and over again to tell him how I feel and it's useless because he says he will change but never does. He says he wont go to counseling because they cant fix our issues. I almost didn't go through with the wedding but he promised me he would change. Which I'm yet to see! I'm so sick and tired of vein home by myself taking care of our child while he goes out every night. I'm a house wife/ stay at home mom, so I don't mind sometime when he goes out with friends, everyone deserves it, but when I say every night, it's literally every night. Or if he is here, he's sleeping! He's not cheating, I know that for a fact, but I don't understand why he never wants to be home and spend time as a family! It's so annoying. I'm so over it, I'm so over his nonsense. It's to the point where I miss my ex. He loves me still, he hasn't even had a girlfriend since we broke up because he's waiting for me! My bestfriend passed away 6 years ago, and I always ask her for guidance and advice and I've had dreams where she's been telling me to contact him, and make sure he's ok, and I'm yet to actually contact him. But I want to so bad! I want to be happy, I want to feel loved, I want to feel appreciated! I have no idea what to do!!!! I really love my husband, but I just can't take feeling like this anymore and him not even caring, well he says he does but I don't feel it! I've been waiting for a long time and he's not changing. I'm starting to resent him, and I'm bitter twords him. I'm so lost and confused! He hasn't spent time with us at all this week ! I have no idea what to think. Please, any advice would make me so happy! Thank you.
on Feb. 17, 2013 at 3:18 AM