I just dont know what to do. I have came to the conclusion that I am not going to continue the relationship with my children's father. But I just cant seem to understand why Im so jealous of him. I think he is moving out tomorrow and even though I wanted this I am so sad. I would try to make the relatoinship work but I just cant trust him. I want to be able to still have some sort of relationship with him because I will miss him so much just not an intimate one. I hate that it came to this. I am so jealous of him being with someone else and that's the main reason that I want to just hang in there and be with him through all of the BS. I constantly think of him having sex with someone else and loving someone else that it makes me sad. I know that whenever we break up it never takes him long to find someone else while I am left lonely and hurt. Why am I doing this to myself. I feel like I am putting myself in misery just by letting him go. I know that he is not going to keep in contact with the kids and then I will be depressed about the kids not having a father. I want him to stay but I also want him to go. I know that if he stays I will be miserable anyways because I just cant seem to trust him. He has been on dating sites and in the past even had outside friendships with women without me knowing. I know I deserve better but I wanted him to be that better one for me. I dont know why I love him so much. I had a crush on him when I was 13 and I have always felt this way about him. I knew back then that he was not right for me but I didnt feel that anyone else could ever love me so I tried to make it work for me. Yes I know I have self esteem issues and I do plan to work on that. I have done counseling before I will look into it again. I have depression and anxiety issues so most of the time I feel like I am unlovable. How could I love someone so much that I am willing to put my happiness aside? Please help me with this. Any encouragement would help.