I honestly do not know where to start. I guess I've been having some major issues ever since I discovered my boyfriend watches porn (and not just a little of it). I felt (and still feel) insecure and not good enough because of it. I am always ready for him, and every time he wants sex I oblige willingly. But when I want sex... he's too tired or "we can have sex tomorrow". Then he suggests that I'm a sex addict, when I think he's a porn addict. All he ever watches is lesbian porn. I have suggested watching it with him, hooking up with a girl and letting him watch, and even three-somes. He always brushes those ideas aside. The only reason I know he's watching so much porn is because I've been snooping through his computer (yes, call me a terrible person, I'm used to it). I can't help it, and I know it's not right, but I do it anyway. I've even discovered that sometimes he watches porn when he's at home watching my baby! I mean, I'm sure she's taking a nap or whatever, but that still bothers the hell out of me!
I am happy in every other aspect of our relationship. He does so much for my daughter and I, and he's not even the father of my daughter. But I feel that ever since I had her, he's more focused on porn. He also lost his job a few months ago, so I know that's another factor. But we've talked about it so much. I've told him how it makes me feel inadequate and uncomfortable, and then he gets angry and he's "tired of arguing about it" and then it turns into a huge screaming fight, and then he threatens that I'm "not worth the trouble". I feel guilty being angry about him watching porn and him not doing certain things to me in bed (primarily going down on me). I feel guilty because he does so much for us, and I am really appreciative. But it seems that he doesn't care how I feel about him watching porn, and the fact that he doesn't want to include me and isn't open to my ideas is also frustrating.
I guess I just need some damn good advice here. Do I just get over it and let him do what he does? Should I even be upset? Obviously talking has gotten me nowhere. :(