I sent my DH a text saying Heyâ€¦ about an hr later he sent me a text back saying Heyâ€¦ a couple mins after that he sent me another text saying I love you. It made me so happy to see that text to finally after months see him say that he loves me and he was not just replying to me saying it. Then he sent me another text tellin me that he mean it and it just broke my heart. It made me happy but at the same time it hurts so much. I have told him many times that I still love him even after all the fights, the nights he disappeared on me and the affair but he has only said it back because I said it to him. I just never thought the first time he said it after all we have been through it would hurt so much. I just don't understand and its not just hormones from being pregnant its more then that and I just don't understand. I'm so confused right now. I don't understand how I could go from loving he fact he said it to being so hurt that he said it and then he had to add the I really mean it part after that. It didn't start to hurt or make me cry until he said he meant it. It should not hurt and make me cry that he said he loves me I should be happy and smiling but no I'm laying in bed crying hurt and confused.
So what he was saying was his goodbye he was making sure I knew he loved me before he stole his friends truck, drive to the middle of no where and tried to kill himself. He only said it because he thought he was going to die
** it was a failed attempt because OnStar was active on his friends truck and my DH did not know that. We filed a missing persons report and because he had taken his friends truck OnStar was able to find and send police to assist when they realized the truck was on but no one was responding. OnStar saved his life if it would have been any other car he took no one would have ever found him and he would have succeeded. He was taken in to the hospital for treatment and will be released to a psych ward around 12pm or 1pm today for a 72hr suicide hold or until his mom, sisters and I feel he is ready to be let go
on May. 2, 2013 at 4:44 PM