How do you let go of the anger? It just keeps building up.
When you and your husband fight, do you hold onto to all the mean things he says to you? I just can not seem to forgive him this time and I am still holding on to anger from things we fought about months, even years ago. Tonight we having an awesome night, he was playing CALL OF DUTY and I was on the laptop. I guess people were cheating on the game and he just BLEW UP, not at me at first. He went in the kitchen and said that he was hungry, ok fine whatever. I simply said "dang baby, you're still hungry? You just had a big ass hambuger". He looked at me and said " SHUT THE FUCK UP!! DON'T WORRY ABOUT WHAT THE FUCK I AM DOING" "SEE, YOU JUST TURNED ME THE FUCK OFF, THERE IS NO WAY I'M FUCKING YOU NOW" and "DON'T WATCH ME, WATCH TV AND SHUT THE FUCK UP". I thought he was kidding at first, till I tried to ask him if was he serious and told me to shut up again. I was in shock that he just blew up at me for saying anything. That fucking game gets to him too much and I end up crying before the night is over.
What husband says this hurtful shit to his wife, because other people were cheating on the game. I wasn't being mean about it, I had a smile on my face and all. If he hadn't blew up at me like that, he would have found out I was going to make him another one. I do EVERYTHING for him and he takes his anger out on me and I am tired of it. I don't talk to him that way EVER. I am mad at myself for letting it get to me this way. I'm tired of his lame sorry ass temporary "I'M SORRY BABES".
We have had sex once this entire month and we had plans to make love tonight and it was ruined because I said something about him eating a hamburger. I feel like I can't say anything to him anymore without him correcting me or telling me to shut up or him calling me stupid. He's my husband and I love him more than anything. Now, watch 2or 3 days from now he'll want some pussy or a blow job and the entire time we are intimate, all I can think of is how he treats me and it's not enjoyable. Don't let me say that I am not in the mood, then he gets pissed because I NEVER EVER say no to sex and I am afraid to say no because I know it will be a fight. I have not had a decent orgasm with him in over a year and we have been married going 2 yrs next month but been together 8.
How do you let go of it and move on? How do you forgive something that keeps repeating? Now this bastard is sleeping right next to me and I just really want to bash him in fucking skull right now. We are having a fight and this fucker has the nerve to fucking sleep!!!