I found out in December that dh had been sexting another woman and sending her dirty messages on fb. We decided to try and work things out after a few months we ended up pregnant with this baby. I thought he was really sorry and that it wasn't going to happen again. I found out after getting pregnant that there had been other instances of him sexting and sending sexual messages to other girls. A total of four women over about 4 years. I was sad and angry to find out there were more women and angry that he didn't come forward about it when I found out about one of them in December.
He also won't quit looking at porn. I realize feelings on porn are divided and it's not a big issue for all but it is to me. It feels like he's lusting for the women in those videos and makes me feel like I'm not good enough to compete with then and that I'm not fulfilling enough.
I haven't found out about any more cheating or porn watching but I'm still very hurt by what he did and paranoid he's still doing it but better at hiding it or something.
I am scared. I want things to work but we can't afford counseling and I can't get him to talk to me. I say we need to talk about our problems and figure out a solution but he says he doesn't feel like we have problems. Except what he did which he says he's changed.
I tell him I think our communication is poor and we are disconnected but he doesn't feel the same. He works all of the time and when he's home barely speaks to me. He thinks a marriage of just sitting together in silence watching tv for an hour a day is ok and I don't. It wasn't like this in the beginning this is not tr life I signed up for.
I have no job, no car, no money and no place to go. I'm sad and I'm scared. Part of me wants to just out up with it until the kids are older another part I me can't stand it anymore.
Should I give it another try or just go?