I've tried talking to him about it and he keeps saying he cares about me. I try to tell him he can care without loving, but he insists he still loves me despite what all his actions are saying. I practically have to beg him to kiss me, have sex, or to just have a conversation.
A month or two ago he finally admitted he didn't find me attractive anymore, he broke my heart but I understand. I still have 30lbs of baby weight to lose, but I'm trying. It's so hard when I feel like I'm getting no support, know he doesn't like the way I look, and has porn on his computer.
I thought things were finally getting better, but tonight I feel like everything is falling apart again. I know he has a demanding job, but being a SAHM is demanding too. For once I'd love to feel appreciated for what I do again. I'm tired of crying, feeling sad, unappreciated, and unloved. I'm at a complete loss. I'm at my wits end. I want to leave, but I want more for things to work. For our relationship to be the way it was a year ago...is that too much to ask?