i am considering an affair over his devotion to video games
I realize this is deeper than the games, but he doesn't make enough income to pay for even a cheap apartment and legally moved back in here after our separation few years back as we weren't divorced. I miss sex as it's once to twice a month as he stinks from cheap beer and sleeps til 2 and
Has stomach issues daily. When we do hook up there's no desire there, just a sense of him performing husbandly duties. I have a roommate man child and need a husband and father to my boys.
I'm not a saint in all this, but feel so depressed and undesirable and unfulfilled that maybe an affair may give me the spark I need to wake up from this box and take my life back. My mom died a few months ago, and tho I have a nursing degree I can't break this apathy and resentment toward my choices to sacrifice my life to a guy that I feel can't give me what I need. I'm 39 and feeling my mortality and possibility of ever having the real thing dwindle.