We discussed the move we would have to make (across the country, to help my mother who is fighting for her disability income, while my younger brother struggles to pay all the bills). He agreed to the move.
We discussed children. He had a vasectomy almost a year ago, and he has 2 biological children, and I have none. He said he wanted another child. He agreed to a reversal, and said we could try. We agreed that we would give it a year before actually getting the reversal done.
When it came time for our move, he tried to back out. We had already discussed the options, and he knew it was the best choice. Still, he tried to back out, and told me to move by myself. Since he knew it was a permanent situation ahead of time, I told him it's pointless to be married.
Now, if I even mention anything about kids, he laughs and says things that tell me he's not wanting more. Anytime I try to bring it up, he shuts the conversation down.
I always thought that you could grow to love somebody. And, I do love him. I don't believe in divorce, and I want to save my marriage, but I'm at a loss. He won't talk to me about these big problems, he doesn't want to see a marriage counselor, and then I'll be angry for a few days and he's back to acting like life is perfect.
I know I'm am idiot for marrying him so quickly... please don't rub it in.