I am semi new to this group, but not to cafemom. I have been struggling in my marriage for a long time now, and partially because I have no real family support on my half, and I don't really have any good friends to relate to..so I thought I would reach out and try to get some advice!
Ok, My husband and I met June of 2007, we had just graduated highschool, by August of 2007 we had started dating and were engaged in November of the same year, and married February 2008, pregnant a week after we got married. We broke up twice before our daughter was born. We didn't really know each other well enough to get married, but my parents were super religious and he was my escape. About 2 months after our daughter was born we got back together and decided to make it work. Well lets just say it has not been an easy road at all...breaking up is constantly a topic in our relationship, at the same time we do love each other and we have become each others best friends.
We have built a life together for the last 7 years, but in that time I have completely lost myself, and I've been up and down with depression. I want to be happy in my relationship, but it's hard, because of things that have happened over the last 7 years, some I just can't seem to get over.
I'm so lost as to what to do, where to start, how to start...it's all a mess in my eyes!
How do I know if we should keep working on this? What is Love? All I have seen in my life is divorce and unhappiness and that is partially why I stay, I feel guilty to wanting to leave, but I feel like I just want to be alone all the time.
This is probably really scrambled so if you read it and reply thank you ahead of time ;)