I haven't been around lately with dealing with DH's PTSD, he has been telling me more stories that happened to him. I feel horrible and we are back to him being distant all over again. On top of this his therapist told him yesterday that he wont be able to see her anymore, that the company she works for, has assigned to to something else without notice. He will get a new therapist here soon, she did suggest some where to go. It's just he will dread going through starting all over again with his history and not knowing if the next therapist will be as good as the last one. I miss my DH so much and he is here, it sucks he is so distant and can't do anything about it. He is trying, he isn't capable of making any kind of connection right now, same with sex, he is now impotent with dealing with PTSD (normal issue for PTSD even though he isn't even 30). His therapist said there isn't a solution and told us to read a book about this, DH already ordered two of them on amazon. I miss him so much, I'm crying every day through out the day. DH apologised to me for me not knowing about his problems before we got married. I didn't know what to say then, but I later told him it wouldn't have mattered, I still would have married him. I would have had fear about our future together and how it would all work out, but I still would have married him. I am not going anywhere, I love him, I just ache for him even though he is here. This can be fixed, his therapist assures of us that. She says he is not afraid to visit his dark memories and that will ensure that he will get better. The down side to this is that it could be a year or more. I hope I can stop crying over this, I guess I'm heart broken for DH and what we have to go through that he can not control.
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- johnny4ever
on Feb. 1, 2012 at 9:02 AM