I just hit an all time low, and told my autistic child i hated him! :(
I have been under a ton of stress the past few weeks, not that this is an excuse, its not. Tomorrow we have a man coming to our house to do measurements and stuff for new home insurance. I have three kids, 9, 6, and 5. I told them we have to get the house all clean for the guy to inspect the home tomorrow. So we have to clean house. I put the 5 yr old and 6 yr old in the tub to take a bath. Well I check every few minutes to make sure everything is okay cause the two of them love to play in the tub together and their bath lasts about an hour or so. I check the youngest wants out, my 6 yr old son is like I wanna stay in the tub. Sometimes he wants a longer bath. I take my youngest and quickly dress him and go back to check on the 6 yr old. He took the tube we use to clean out the fish tank, (NOT SURE HOW HE GOT PAST ME TO DO THAT), put it on the sink faucet, put the other end in the tub, has the water running and its all over the floor, he has used his shirt which had dirt on it from playing the yard earlier and wiped his tee all over the walls, so there is MUD everywhere. I have a ton of cleaning still to do, the bathroom down here was all clean, and now I have to redo everything. I start yelling he starts screaming, I tell him to apologize he laughs and says NO I lost my damned temper and said YOU RUIN EVERYTHING I HATE YOU!
I am the WORST FRIGGIN PARENT ON THE PLANET. I NEVER SHOULD HAVE SAID THAT. I could NEVER hate my baby.