So the other day my son was saying mom theirs a car coming and I am like okay and we keep walking and he says to me mom I don't want you to die and he says this repeatedly to me it was weird, and I asked him did someone tell you something? He didn't say anything. It was a real wake up call and it made me feel really appreciated by him :) I may not be appreciate much elsewhere but at least at home I am.
I am being able to get a PCA for Russell and I am happy about it. He will get 2 1/2 hours a day 7 days a week cool. So now I get to find one and hopefully they can come to my house and bring him to the YMCA facility we have here at our apartments it is free of charge for the families and they have activities for the children. Tommorrow we meet with frasiers to see able additional therapy. It was nice to meet with the PCA lady and she gave me some numbers to call on for disabilities for children and I think I will do so. Hopefully I can get the PCA, and therapies set up soon! And even though I may be a stay at home mom it seems like you never have enough time lol to get everything done in one day let alone find a job lol.Tommorrow is my 32 birthday :) hopefully me and Russ can go out and do something together. I started back at the gym which is really great for me! I love being back I may be skinnier now but I still have to work just as hard as before to keep it off! I am lossing the extra that I gained after lossing my job I was at 143 then I went up to 156 and now I am back down to 148 I am getting closer and I am feeling better about myself I feel like I am achieving my goals when I go and do an hour of cardio and I push myself hard I want to get some excercise equipment for at home. It feels really good and Russ loves the YMCA I am so glad I rejoined. it is one of the best things to have and it is helping me not feel depressed and it is helpful in quiting smoking.