No matter what I do to make my kids happy, it never works.
They scream & cry ALL day everyday. I've had it.
Bryley is my ASD child. He's 3.5. He hates his little sister. He won't play with her or give her affection back when she gives it.
When she cries he SCREAMS and flops and hurts himself, hurts me, breaks toys... Etc..
And my daughter who will be two next month... Is a whiner. All day. Everyday. Whine cry whine scream cry whine whine whine whine scream.
Soooooo all I hear all day long is screaming!
Everything in my house is broken or ruined. My house is super super kid proofed too so it's bad.
My his week so far- Bryley has painted with his poop, he was suppose to be napping/watching a movie. He wasn't making any noise at all do I figured he was sleeping. When he's not he's banging and jumping around and it's obvious he's awake.
Well I went in to check on him and there was poop ALL over. It took two hours of scrubbing to clean it up. This isn't the first time but it's been months. We invested in a shampooer and I thought it was past us. I was wrong!
He's also been spitting again. Something else I thought we were over, it's been weeks since he's done that. Their carpet is totally ruined. And NASTY. To amount of scrubbing or cleaners helps. He ruined his gorgeous solid wood toy box. It was one of the first gifts my husband ever got him. Hand made btw and the old man who made it past away a moth before our daughter was Born. It wasn't cheap. I didn't expect it to be ruined--- or spit on. And when I say spit I mean, he takes his cup and spits all over everything. He had a cup of apple juice/water in the car home from OT and I thought it was gone, he was carrying the cup..... Yeah I was wrong. Everything is sticky and disgusting.
I'm just.. Angry and sad.
I seriously feel like my kids hate me.
I'm a sahm and DH works WAY too much, he's rarely here. We dont have family in this state. I have noone.
I'm waiting on human services to update me so I can get some help but just like everythjng else ASD related its taken FOREVER.
Idk why he is regressing back to all this behavior. Idk why my dd thinks she needs to scream 24/7 and idk how to get either of them to stop. I've had it. Like... If I had it in me to leave them.. I'd go. Terrible I know :( but I can't do this!
Idk what to do.
Sigh. Sorry. I needed to vent to moms who understand and don't judge me or say crappy things about parenting him..
No one gets it.
What do I do?