i kept saying i didn't want the boys to start school because i would miss them and i didnt want them to grow up and i was sad they are one year closer to kindergarten. while those are all a little true, that isnt the entire reason why i was so upset about them starting school this year. (oh god here comes the tears). i am scared as hell for this school year. this is going to be a huge school year for all of us. theres going to be evaluations involved, then i have to pick a new school, then i have to have a new iep meeting with new people, not the people im used to.
the evaluations scare me because i have to get a slap in the face AGAIN on what level my boys are at. they have made HUGE progress this past year but i know they are not on age level. and of course i have to be reminded of that, and of course i will cry when i am told that because i always do.
picking a school... last time when i had to pick this school, it was so hard. i looked at 8 schools. and i still feel like i picked the wrong one. what if i do that again?
everyday i dread opening their folder when they come home because im scared of what i will find about the aging out thing. there is not one thing i will enjoy about this school year. not at all.
now that i got that out i feel a little better.