Grieving the news since this Friday!!! please help me!!!
I knew about a year ago, something was wrong with my baby boy, but i kept thinking to myself" It's just me, i"m the one who's being paraniod. And so did family members. Now we have the final diagnosis of him being PDD/NOS on the spectrum of Autism. On Friday Morning. My heart got ripped out of my chest!!!
It's been 4 days, and my eyes hurt from all the crying. My anger is towards everyone in my family, and i think i'm going a little crazy! How do i deal with this. I know i'm pushing every button starting today, with the support groups. But ladies, and friends, i need help NOW!!! I need to know how to deal with this properly. I am one strong person, but right now i have no angels holding me up!
Today is new day, a new week. I will be strong for my family, and not to try and think so negative. He will qualify for SSI and Medicaid, so that is wonderful. He just deserves a good life, and don't know if he will ever get it with how severe it is. It breaks my heart to here all the stuff the doctor said, but it was like he knew him from the" T" for that i am grateful.Everything he said about colton was an open book!!
I'm just a mother doing the best she can, with the help out there given. Thank you for letting me VENT!!! i needed this. Today is a new day, a new week, and there is hope for my little man, i am just grieving, and it's sooooo god dammmm hard.....