Has anyone put their child in daycare just to get a break?
I'm considering doing this. My husband see's that I'm starting to go a little crazy here so he offered to work overtime in order to pay for an inclusive daycare that one of my sons therapists (that comes to the house) works for.
I'm really struggling with this though. For one, I would feel like I failed or gave up. It's very expensive, and I'm having a difficult time justifying spending the money on it. On the other hand, it's literally the only place that I have found that I feel comfortable with. Also, I feel like I need to be home actively helping my child. But, when I am home, all I do is struggle to survive the day. I don't feel like I'm actually capable of helping him much at all in this poor emotional state that I'm in.
I guess after I start to feel better, I might get a part time job or something. But I know that I'm just going to feel like I've abandoned him, and that I'm not doing all that I can do to help him. But again, when I'm with him, I can't really handle much besides his basic care.
Anyway, I'm feeling very conflicted. I always feel like I'm choosing between "bad and worse".
Has anyone else decided to put their child in daycare? What was the emotional aspect of this experience like for you? Is it proving to be a good decision?
Thank you so much.