Today had just left me feeling beat up. My son is 2 diagnosed last thurs with autism. Today he slapped me across the face and kicked me. He slapped his behaviorist in the face too. I felt like nothing I do is good enough. He had a complete meltdown since I didnt let him close the basement door. I accidentally knocked over his toys that he apparently was making into a perfect row. Everything I did sent him running screaming "no like it" "no like mommy". He tore his matrress apart because I have the money for a new one. Getting him to eat is never an issue my kid is a tank. Today he threw food spit and screamed. He has been extra angry past 2 days but today I just feel crying. I feel alone and I feel like I dont understand my son. I feel like its my fault hes sceeaming and physically aggressive. Im clearly missing something here. I literally had to close my eyes and breathe so I didnt snap today. All I want to do is be a good mom and understand my son. Thanks for letting me vent. Hugs to you all. Perhaps tomorrow will be better?.
on Mar. 4, 2013 at 3:30 PM