Hi ladies! Ive posted a few times and I always get great advice and support so here i go....my beautiful son ryan is 2yr. Ive known since he was 6mo something was different. Loooooong story short ryan was diagnosed 3-4wks ago with autism (aspergers). His dr said official diagnosis is autism since the title asperger or pdd-nos are not being used starting in may. So any ways. Everyone knows now. My family and my inlaws. Im getting a lot of yeah we knew something was off or hes def "quirky". To be honest no one says anything that im ok with. Ryans diagnosis seems to be the topic of everyones convo. Its just always in my face and some questions i dont yet have the amswers to. Im still coming to grips with its not in my head the drs agree and see what i deal with. Some days or moments im accepting of his diagnosis and then bam I get sad or angry or both. Im still trying to learn and research aspergers to learn how ryan thinks and feels. Hes very aggressive and hyper. Hes sooo repititive that I have moments of wanting to scream. He has behaviorial therpay which helps. I just dont know when does this feeling go away. The feeling of being ok and then bam im sad or angry. I find myself talking to myself. Like seriously get over it move forward! Do what needs to be done!. Suck it up!. Hes a beautiful healthy baby boy I have a lot to be grateful for and here I am sad. I read other women posts and I think wow you are all soo strong and here I am. Sorry if this post pisses anyone off. I must sound ungrateful and stupid but this is how Im feeling. Thanks to any advice or support.
on Mar. 18, 2013 at 2:03 PM