I'm pregnant...I need support please read
Ok..I haven't been on in a while due to a lot of chaos...anyways I recently found out I am pregnant again. I already have Summer, my beautiful 3 yr old daughter....she was dx'd with PDD-NOS, and SPS may 2011.
This pregnancy was totally unexpected...I was even taking birth control! My daughters father is "scared" and isn't bei g the least bit sensitive to my feelings or needs. We haven't told his parents yet.....and we live in their home. For those that are familiar w/my situation....know how awful and difficult it has been for us living here (it's been 2 years since we moved here when mike, my dr got laid off) my mil HATES me...and treats me daughter not to nicely...unless someone else is around. She blatantly favors her 2 other grandsons and their mom, my fil is a pompous jerk...but at least I can honestly say he loves Summer and thas all that matters . They both undermined my parenting. My mil is judge mental,nasty,Insulting,disrespectful to me as a mother,woman, and person....living here has been HELL. So I am PETRIFIED to put it mildly about telling them I'm pregnant....all they will focus on will be finance.....even tho I will not be needing ONE CENT from them for this baby.....my sister plans on helping me with whatever I need till I am settled (my sister will be renting the 2 bedroom apt above hers In queens, so once Summer is done with her preschool this year we will move there, but til then we would have to continue to live here)
I just don't know wtf to do.....I feel so alone at a time I need and should have emotional support . What's really killing me is Mike's behavior. At my first soon yesterday...he was blank. No smile no nothing. I'm due oct 7, the baby is healthy and I AM HAPPY....yet he isn't and it's hurtful. He says it's cause he's scared. SCARED???? Of what? ME taking care of 2 kids alone Instead of just 1?!?!? I know our living and $ situation is shit... But HE does NOTHING to he or fix it....so he is forcing me to leave him cause I don't dear e to be treated the way his parents and he (now) is treating me. It's. heart breaking....
That's why I needed to come on here and vent....I need some POSITIVE,LOVING,SUPPORT from somewhere..,,