I'm a single mom with an spergers 9 year old boy who I'm crazy for but I admit he is a handful and I often look forward to him going to his dad's for a weekend. The problem is as soon as he leaves I crash on the couch and spend the whole weekend feeling bad that I don't get enough done with my precious free time and I miss him so much. My apartment is way too quiet and every time I find a random lego piece on the floor it makes me cry. How do I enjoy this valuable time alone without feeling guilty? Is it OK that some times I am so tired that I do a few loads of laundry and then just lay around? I go into such a funk while he is gone and end up feeling like I wasted time that could be so valuable....then I beat myself up.