But since he has autism and his throat is a big sensory area for him I know recovery is gonna suck. He always forces him self to throw up an I am worried he will tear the scans and we will have at least one ER visit for bleeding. Plus how do you keep a regular 4 yo on bed rest let alone one you can't really explain the reasons to and hear out his frustrations on it.
Anyway, even though he has had several surges before I am getting worried the closer it comes. I keep having dreams he does in the OR and dh blames me for ever thinking it was a good idea and takes dd and leaves me. (Which he would do if that ever happened).
At least I am a prepare and stress for the absolute worst kinda person so when things go better then expected I am happy with the outcome. But I am slowly becoming a nervous wreck today. Good thoughts his way for tomorrow morning would be greatly appreciated!