I love my children beyond explanation. My youngest is on the spectrum and my oldest has sensory processing(we are also in the process of evaluations for ADD/ADHD. I try so hard to maintain my patience and understanding that sometimes they can not help it. They are amazing kids.
We have a continent issue with the brotherly love thing of taking each other's things and starting fights with one another.
Tonight was a bad night for me. I suffer from chronic back pain and impacts my mood sometimes. Tonight they started with their normal stuff. My oldest took the youngest nerf bow and arrow. The youngest of course flipped out. I asked the youngest why does he does this when he knows how is brother will react.
I decided to try to talk with both of them about what we can do as a family to work together. My oldest tried so hard to listen. The youngest decided to have a disrespectful moment and not listen. I got upset and told them that I was done talking and needed a few minutes to myself.
I feel extremely terrible. My oldest got extremely upset because I was crying. I should learn to control my reactions better. I just want to go in and hug them while they are sleeping. I apologized to them for getting upset.
Sorry for such a long post. I just needed to get this off my chest
on Sep. 30, 2013 at 1:12 AM