I took his normal breakfast. (Forgot a cup for his drink) He did good with the long line so I could get a donut but as we got to the table he wanted to run. So, I grabbed his hand and went behind the table and grabbed what I wanted and went around everyone. He got a juice. We sat down and he started to eat his cereal and banana. (He won't feed himself) I tried by asking if he wanted the spoon. He told me no, so I didn't push. Then we had to sit in the middle of the table. The woman next to him was talking and taking pics of some of her kids friends at the table. Nicolas waited for her to stop talking and said hi. He was pretty loud. She turned her back on him. (That's when I noticed that the parents were giving me looks because I was feeding him!) I just told him to leave the lady alone. He then all of a sudden got very anxious. He was burying his head into me. I was able to rub his back and calm him. So, he finished most of the breakfast. I then made the mistake of looking up. I had a woman that actually looked at us and shook her head.
I wanted to be like Nicolas and bury my head somewhere. I wasn't embarrassed but it's hard for me to keep my mouth shut when people show ignorance from not understanding. And I knew not nice words would come out of my mouth in front of all these kids. So, we got through the breakfast and got out of that cafeteria.
Walked to the book fair and it was in a little room with a long line coming out. Might looked at Nick and he couldn't move anymore knowing he had to go in there. So, we just walked around the school and sat in the lobby till his teacher came. (I went to the book fair afterwards and gave his books to the teacher!)
Considering, he did excellent. A lot better than I would expected with the people that were around us. Does these instances ever get easier? Will we ever be able to do things like that without feeling like I'm an awful mom compared to everyone else? I know I'm not. It just feels that way. :(
Sry it's so long.