So last night DH kinda hinted to me (in not so many words) that if I don't stop freaking out over all this TTC stuff he's potentially considering divorce. He was just about in tears and said that I'm the best thing that's ever happened to him and he doesn't want things to change between us but that he doesn't know how to console me anymore over this TTC stuff and doesn't want "us" to have to change. DH is my entire world and I seriously don't think I could go on with my life if he ever left me. So I'm making the decision that we're not going to TTC anymore. I hope you will allow me to stay here and cheer you guys on in your TTC journeys but I can't do it anymore. It's too hard on my marriage and I'm pretty convinced at this point that if I were meant to be a mom, it would have happened by now. I just recently reconnected with a friend from high school who just got divorced because of their fertility issues (they tried for 3 years, which is the timeframe DH and I are headed towards in just a couple months from now) and I'm so afraid of that happening to DH and me. I would love to stay if you're ok with it but if you want me to go, I'll totally understand. I just don't know what to do anymore and could really use a hug.
on Jan. 4, 2012 at 12:35 PM