The abridged version of my story is this: My partner is 27, and is going to carry our child. I am 28. We tried from 2010-2011 with a longtime friend as our known donor, via the instead cup method, for about 9 months. His schedule got difficult to keep up with, so we switched to a new known donor. On the very first attempt with the new donor, we got pregnant. All went well for four months, when my wife developed chorioamnionitis last September, and I won't go into details, but our son was born too premature, and we lost him a couple days before my wife's birthday. It has taken an unspeakable toll on us, but after doctor's orders to wait 6 months to ttc, we have been trying with the same donor since April... so next onth will be our 8th month to try again.
I know technically we are "ttc after a loss" or whatever [those groups are terribly inactive] but I guess I'm posting here for positive words -- after losing our son Levi, and trying again for so long, we are DISCOURAGED. The doctors say we have no reason to think we won't get pregnant again, that Chorioamnionitis is very, very rare and not caused by anything to do with my wife or the donor or anything we did. She just contracted an infection that found its way into the amniotic fluid, and his lungs weren't strong enough to take the early labor which the infection caused...
I guess I just want someone to tell me it WILL happen again - that all these hour long trips to see the donor, all the weekends he stays in our guest room to allow for trying, all the icky semen and cups and opks and disappointment will add up to us actually getting to be parents.
We've found ourselves at a stalemate where there's nothing more we can try that we haven't already. I think our next ideas, if we don't get pregnant by the end of the year, is to beg the doc for clomid or maybe try a combination of syringe and cup... I don't know. I feel like we're running out of time, or that it will never happen.
I know I sound crazy, so if you took the time to read this, I appreciate it...just needed to get that off my chest.