I'm new here. I know that socialization is NOT a part of homeschooling for the most part, it's unusual. But, we have an unusual situation. I have a 13 yr old with serious depression. I'm not sure if I'm on the right board for this. If not, please tell me where to post. My daughter is homeschooled. She was in public school from K-2. Long story, but school would not help her learning problems, so we started homeschool. I did not know at the time that would cause her depression . At that age, learning is more important than friends. She has 2 older sisters that are not at home. No children live near us. Only family with kids her age moved away for 4 yrs but come back, now they are not close. (both of them are boys). There is an empty house beside us, sometimes she looks at it and cries. She is overweight and feels bad about it. I try to help her with that, but she's too depressed about it to try. She is getting so bad that it's hard for her to do homeschool. She is very behind in grade level which makes her feel even worse. We are in 2 homeschool groups, but she is not connecting to anyone. She got some type of 'disorder' from her father (he is with us). It is social, mental, something. She wants desperately to have friends, but when she's with them, she cries and wants to go home. She says they don't want to have anything to do with her. And she is right. Our health insurance is horrible. We live far away from any big city with doctors who can help her with social issues. I was taking her to a psychiatrist/psychologist but it got to be a standstill. He would tell us the same things over and over again. We quit going. Now she's off of her meds which is making her worse. I'm now looking for ANY doctor who would help her. She is more comfortable with a woman doctor, they are impossible to find here. We really don't have enough money for doctors, but we have to do something. I wrote an urgent desperate email to the homeschool groups. Some of them offered to let our children get together. That did'nt work out. She is in girl scouts with public school kids, but I don't know how long she'll want to be with them, they are horrible. We can tell the difference, the behavior is like night and day between homeschool and public school kids. We don't have the money to let her join things like sports, music, band, whatever. She is so so alone. I am with her 24 hrs a day. She is lost in her own world with pokemon. She does ds games, walks around the house talking and laughing to herself. She gets this from her father. She does this around other kids and they tend to stay away. Why are kids so cruel!! She is not as 'worldly' as other kids. She is not around the bad influences at all, thank God. I know she can NOT make it in public school, with her anxiety around other kids, being very behind in school work, feeling bad aobut herself, the horrible bullying that I KNOW will happen if she goes. She does have ONE friend, but she's in public school and they don't see each other much. The girl is not as friendly as my daughter is toward her. THey never call each other unless My daughter calls her to want to see her. THis is just a hopeless situation. She has mentioned suicide in a way,she said she told God to forget this life, take her with him now! I just don't knwo what to do. I spend most of my time doing things with her to try to make her happy. She sees kids with each other in town, and she just starts crying. I am crying now so I'll go.