I've never been good at housecleaning but I'm making an effort...I care for a 14 month old...I still have 4 Christmas orders left to fill (involves painting etc)...looking for job not only for my self but having to do jobsearch for MY HUSBAND b/c I get blamed for a job he resigned from over a year ago before taking on a maintainance job b'c we were newlywed i had anxiety issues etc. Which feeling anxiety right now to be honest...He and I have communication break downs all the time that generally involve he raises his voice which is an emotional trigger for me. I have asked him to lower his voice to which he replies that I'm being immature lol don't get that one...I'm overseeing Children's ministries plus helping a family in need while watching our finances being in really bad shape in that our bills exceed his income...We do not do a phone plan we do a monthly thing now which is cheaper, we do not have cable, we haven't been buying clothing or anything. I'm not using the car more than is necessary. We need the computer b/c I have to be able to watch my daughter and do the job searches all at the same time...We've eliminated every extra expense are still coming up short which is why I must look for myself a job. He blames me for the financial situation even though I've never been a big spender but he says b/c he had to quit the offshore job due to my anxiety and insecurities that it's my job to find him a better paying job. So yes alot of weight on my shoulders. Oh about the other situation--the family that I'm helping involves a Mother that is disabled and cannot drive who cannot assist her daughter (ADHD diagnosed) with her homework in that she didn't complete school past the 6th grade...so she has a hard time helping daughter with 5th grade homework...the mother cannot drive daughter to her dr's appts, to an afterschool program, or to counseling sessions which I've arranged...it's a very difficult situation and so I'm now calling around to see what helps are available to them cause I just have more than I can handle right now...oh the other thing--when the cold front comes in I get terrible back spasms. I was in bed all day for an entire day this week having to just enclose my daughter in the room with me...it can be quite difficult.